In Four Months
Today, I am tired.
I didn’t sleep last night
Because you were leaving.
You, who I now love.
It's strange how quickly hearts can touch.
And how distance, time, and circumstance
Can force them apart.
I didn’t sleep because I wanted to steal time,
Adding every extra minute we could
To what we always knew
Would be ephemeral.
Wet socks, long talks,
and words in a language
I didn’t speak before I met you.
My heart has crossed borders,
And my heart has flown.
It is flying away now.
I will see you again, I say,
But it will not be the same.
When you’re miles away
I cannot laugh with you every day.
The rest of our lives may fit
into just one of the months we spent together.
I will remember your funny jokes.
I will remember your smile.
I will remember holding your hand.
And some part of me will remain
At the beach,
under the stars with you,
Sharing our secrets.
On the bus,
trying not to die of heat exhaustion,
Sitting next to you
And talking about god.
Teaching you how to dance.
Confessing my feelings
And hearing your kindness.
Talking to you for 8 hours,
In public, within earshot,
As if no one is listening
And we were all alone.
Anywhere and everywhere,
Playing cards with you and
Cheating to make sure you win.
Reading you a children's book
As you correct my grammar.
Waiting in line with you
to get a shot.
Scrambling against wet rocks,
At high tide, as you climb the cliffside,
Hoping you don’t die.
Having no plans
and still having a perfect,
Incredible day with you.
Making the craziest decisions,
Laughing by your side,
And somehow having it all turn out alright.
So, I didn’t sleep last night
Because I wanted to make more memories with you.
We were sitting in the McDonald’s playpen,
The only place open at 3AM,
Trying not to cry.
To hold you as long as I could
before I had to let you go.
And now, you’ve gone.
At least for now,
At least for longer than I’ve known you,
No matter how long, for too long.
And I will be okay,
And I will cherish the memories we’ve made.
And I would like to see you again, if I can.
To keep knowing you like I have.
Because my heart now holds you in it.
And I've handed yours part of mine.
But if I can’t,
If our lives no longer collide,
I will be glad to have met you,
To have been changed by you,
And changed with you.
To have spread my heart
Across the country to all
The corners you call home.
Because now, I’ve met you.
